A Fractured Day
By Lori La Bey of Senior Lifestyle Trends
Once again one of our reader’s shares a heart breaking story with a twist, and I didn’t want you to miss out. Michelle and I have had ongoing conversations regarding our Mothers. This particular story real touched me and I felt compelled to reply and use her specific situation to show how our perceptions and attitudes at any given time can shift our experience. Please read Michelle’s comment and my reply. I’d love to hear your thoughts as well! Remember there is no owner’s manual with this disease, so the more we share our experiences and thoughts the better off we all will be.
Hi Lori…yesterday…not a good day. The nursing home business office called me to say there was a balance in my mother’s account and they wanted to know who the check should be made out to…her estate or the funeral home. They suggested the funeral home, so I went with that. For some reason the call left me a little upset, but I went about my day. I had to take some paperwork to another office and decided to take a walk outside. I guess I was so preoccupied that I ended up falling down on the sidewalk and a kind gentleman help me to get up. I decided at that time that I had better get back to my office, but while doing so I was limping and in a bit of pain. Well because I fell during working hours I had to go to the emergency room and I now have a fractured ankle. Can you believe it??? but prior to going, I sat at my desk nursing my ankle and when I opened my desk I saw my mom’s obit. I became so upset because I thought how she would have been at my side during my visit to the ER. I hate that my mom is not here and I miss what she would be doing for me if she were alive.
At home today nursing my ankle back to health and have sweet hubby waiting on me…hand and foot…LOL
Take care Lori…and hope to hear from you soon. How is your mother and daughter doing?
Here is my response to Michelle
What a horrible day, from the draining emotions of loss and grief to the physical pain of your ankle. I’m so sorry you had bad day, but there were some good spots in your day. I know it’s hard to see them when we are filled with sorrow so I’d like to take a moment and point them out to you, and when you’re ready you might decide to remember this “fractured day” differently.
1) For example, having a “balance.” Extra money is always a good thing. It would have been more welcoming if it wasn’t associated with the loss of your Mom, retriggering your grief. I’m sure that is why you felt upset. That would be unsettling to most any one of us in your situation.
2) The kind gentleman who helped you up when you fall, that was a wonderful gesture.
3) Now the emergency room and the fractured ankle that’s never fun, but I do see a fantastic opportunity to shift this story. You mentioned you hate your Mom is not here and couldn’t be with you at the hospital. I totally get your thought process and have had many days where I focus on my loss and feel sorry for myself, my loneliness. It’s a natural thing we do. What if you look at opening your desk drawer and seeing your Mother’s obit, as a sign she was with you. That she was trying to tell you she is there for you just in a different realm. Think of her as your Guardian Angel, always at your side, always in your heart, always connected to you. If you can shift your thought process to accept The Guardian Angel concept your reality will most likely become comforting. You will feel loved, cared for, not alone or abandon; only reassured your connection with your Mother lives on past this physical world in which we live.
4) Living the pampered life with a caring hubby waiting on you hand and foot….not so bad honey, not so bad! LOL
As for my Mother we did have her 82nd Birthday Party and I will be writing on it soon and posting pictures. My Daughter is doing well. She is has a wonderful new boyfriend and is doing well. Thanks for asking!